or, MORE ABOUT THAT PESKY GHOST AND THAT "SHAMANISM THING"
So, as I mentioned in my last post, this not-so-dearly-departed soldier had followed me home and was doing his best to wreck havoc in my life. When he first took up residence, I was a little frightened, remembering my experience with that cackling spirit terrorizing me as a child. But as the days wore on, I got more and more irritated as he continued to make a nuisance of himself. Every time I tried to talk to him, he just whispered in my ear how much he loved me. Great. I was no longer afraid, just annoyed. So I decided I had to do something about it. And soon!
I started looking for anything -- anything at all -- that would help me figure out how to deal with it. A few years earlier, I had started reading the works of Shaman and author Lynn Andrews. I went to Lynn's Joshua Tree Gathering in 1994, and had enrolled in her Mystery School the following spring. One of my friends in the school suggested I read Mary Summer Rain's book, "Phantoms Afoot." That story was entertaining, but not helpful. Just a fictional story. I still didn't how to rid myself of this spirit. Meantime, he continued to follow me around and harass any men who paid any attention to me.
Next, I found a book written by a psychologist about some patients in regression therapy that seemed to have spirit attachments. I can't remember the name of the book, and couldn't find it in online. (There are some books that sounded similar, but they were published much later.) It was interesting and he did talk about how he moved spirits on. So I took a few days to summon my courage, re-read that section about 20 times, taking notes, prayed, and then tried to replicate his process to move my soldier to the other side. Well, that didn't exactly work, but he did leave me after that. He refused to cross over, so I assume that he found some other chic to hassle. I wasn't satisfied, and worried he might come back. I also didn't like the idea of him attaching himself to someone else. I kept on looking.
After one year in Lynn's Mystery School, I was still thinking I was missing something. I yearned for something more personal, deeper, and ancient. I knew there was something else out there that I needed to find.
One day in 1996, my massage therapist friend, Beth (yes, the friend that used to be the soldier's obsession) brought me a flyer about Shamanism classes through The Foundation for Shamanic Studies. Listed in their workshop list was "Death, Dying, and Beyond." I got so excited -- that was exactly what I was looking for! Then I realized I had to take their intro class first. No problem. When I took that first journey work workshop with Nan Moss and David Corbin, I realized that this was the deep Shamanic work that I had been looking for.
Next: Ghost Stories and the Shamanic Path. I have many more stories to tell about my work with the spirits of the dead. Coming soon!